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<p>Hi Everyone!</p><p>I&#x27;ve been meaning to do this since I migrated from the bad site in November 2022. I may be guilty of procrastination from time to time. Anyway.. I started on mastodon.social, migrated to mastodon.lol (RIP), briefly ran my own mastodon instance and then migrated to the mighty beige.</p><p>I&#x27;m a middle-aged, white, <a href="/tags/bisexual/" rel="tag">#bisexual</a>, <a href="/tags/polyamorous/" rel="tag">#polyamorous</a>, cisgender male and deal with <a href="/tags/bpd/" rel="tag">#BPD</a>, <a href="/tags/anxiety/" rel="tag">#anxiety</a>, and <a href="/tags/depression/" rel="tag">#depression</a>. I live on the outskirts of what I lovingly call the &quot;Mormon Vatican&quot;. I self-medicate with <a href="/tags/cannabis/" rel="tag">#cannabis</a> to maintain emotional regulation. I live with my partner who struggles with <a href="/tags/cptsd/" rel="tag">#CPTSD</a>, crippling anxiety, depression and BPD tendencies; and also with our obese, codependent <a href="/tags/bordercollie/" rel="tag">#BorderCollie</a>. I almost compulsively use profanity. My content is probably not suited for younger viewers.</p><p>My partner is currently unable to work due to the aforementioned conditions. We&#x27;re currently between residences and have been staying in an extended-stay style hotel while my partner recovers from a recent toxic living situation.</p><p>Meanwhile, I put every ounce of my <a href="/tags/spoons/" rel="tag">#spoons</a> into poverty-wage <a href="/tags/retail/" rel="tag">#retail</a>. I simply don&#x27;t have the stamina to work a second job. </p><p>Our goal is to be moved into permanent housing in the next 60 days, in large part because this motel costs more than my entire monthly wage income (including a recent rate hike of over $350/mo), and any expenses beyond that have unfortunately been the burden of the <a href="/tags/mutualaid/" rel="tag">#MutualAid</a> community.</p><p>Essentially, we&#x27;ve been &quot;making a living from panhandling&quot; because written content and curation by amateurs like myself generally isn&#x27;t a lucrative endeavor, and I&#x27;m always too damned tired to pursue podcasting or vlogging.</p><p>If you&#x27;re someone morally opposed to seeing a <a href="/tags/mutualaidrequest/" rel="tag">#MutualAidRequest</a> in your timeline (or wax pedantic about the etymology and perversion of the term being used in this manner instead of &quot;begging&quot;), you&#x27;ll probably want to disengage at least for the immediate future. On the other hand, you&#x27;ve likely already muted the terms and therefore won&#x27;t even be able to see this post, so.. <img src="https://neodb.social/media/emoji/beige.party/bear_shrug.png" class="emoji" alt=":bear_shrug:" title=":bear_shrug:"> </p><p>Somehow there are still people who have put up with our begging and &quot;grifting&quot;. I would guess their motivation is sort of like a Simpsons quote that seemed particularly appropriate for our situation:</p><p>=~=~=<br>&quot;But why did you do it?&quot;<br>&quot;I felt there was something special in you. It&#x27;s like rooting for the Cubs. You keep thinking they&#x27;ll make it, and then you realize they never, ever will.&quot;<br>=~=~=</p><p>If you couldn&#x27;t already gather, I&#x27;m a hardcore, bleeding-heart <a href="/tags/progressive/" rel="tag">#progressive</a>. I&#x27;m also a deeply-flawed, hypocritical poser about all those things a la Brian Griffin on &quot;Family Guy&quot;. I try to divert my views and rants about this to my secondary account <span class="h-card"><a href="https://zirk.us/@LibertyForward1" class="u-url mention" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">@<span>LibertyForward1</span></a></span>.</p><p>I boost *a lot*. That post average on my profile? It&#x27;s not an exaggeration; it&#x27;s updated automatically at midnight local time. Expect an avalanche of <a href="/tags/cat/" rel="tag">#cat</a> pics, <a href="/tags/dog/" rel="tag">#dog</a> pics, other interesting animal pics, and metric (not imperial) shittons of <a href="/tags/shitposts/" rel="tag">#shitposts</a>. I love weird, vulgar, and silly. I&#x27;ll almost always boost a <a href="/tags/dadjoke/" rel="tag">#DadJoke</a> if it&#x27;s sufficiently cringe.</p><p>Also.. Brevity isn&#x27;t my strongest suite.</p>